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Sometimes I feel like I never write anything positive in my blog. So far all my posts are about disappointments, accidents, disasters and what not. So last time when I posted about ‘Sidr’, I was thinking my next post would be about something good and positive. Unfortunate me, another bad thing has happened today. Bangla band group Dolchut’s Shanjib Chowdhury has passed away due to a brain haemorrhage. (link: DailyNews). I have always loved Dolchut’s music and preferred Shanjib’s compositions over Bappa’s (another lead of Dolchut).

So, what’s up with me!! Have I stopped paying attention towards the good side of life or good things have stopped happening around me?

Anyway, here is a song by country music legend Johnny Cash. He covers Nine Inch Nail’s ‘Hurt’. I believe this was his last official music release.

Lyrics:
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain the only thing that’s real. The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything.
What have I become, my sweetest friend. Everyone I know goes away, in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar’s chair. Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear. You are someone else I am still right here.
If I could start again, A million miles away
I would keep myself, I would find a way.

[Source: AzLyrics.com]

It’s been a long time since I wrote something here. I think my last post was in June’07. Nothing has changed so far, except that I had an accident 2 weeks ago [Oct 17^th]. I was driving Ammu back from her doctor’s place and on our way back when I was making a wide left turn, a grey Chevy Trailblazer flew on me from out of nowhere. I bet the driver was going way above the speed limit. Still it was my fault, because I had the stop sign and according to my common sense and accident report, I should have paid more attention. John, driver of the other vehicle was a jerk and he was acting like I did it intentionally to kill him or to ruin his heavenly perfect life or something. I told him few times that I am sorry. An accident is an accident. Still he was acting all freaked out. Anyway, since I pay only for the liability, my insurance is not going to pay a single penny to fix my car. I gotta fix it from my own pocket :(. I already have bought the right fender, right marker light, right turn light and right headlight. The car is still at the bodyshop. Hopefully I will get it back on this Monday. For past 2 weeks I’ve been driving Abbu’s car and I feel like I’ve lost my faith in my driving skills. Sitting behind the wheel is no fun for me anymore. I didn’t have any accident for almost 5 years and now I have two accidents back to back in one year [totaled a minivan this February:(]. I just can’t risk another accident right now and thought of having one is scaring the heaven out of me. I don’t know if I am just getting older or having my post-accident-trauma!! :p

Yesterday I had a phone interview with ‘Authentec’ for a System Test Engineer position. The company is in Florida and they design fingerprint authentication sensors. The guy who took my interview was a weirdo. I felt like I was talking to a robot. At one point, he asked me “how to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich? Describe every step”. LOL. I was like, “are you serious?”. Then he told me that, he was just checking how detail oriented I am :p. Actually they were looking for someone who knew Java (recruiter didn’t tell me that). So I told him before the interview, even though I have programming background but I am not a hardcore developer and I don’t know Java. He said it wouldn’t be a problem. Still he asked me 4 Java related questions [at least that’s how few of them sounded to me :p] and I had to repeat “I don’t know.. I don’t know.. ” 4 times within 30 seconds. LOL. So the interview didn’t go that great. But I am glad that I am not leaving NY for FL. :p

Rahman Bhai also had an interview with Infosys in BridgeWater, NJ. I went with him, cause he didn’t want to drive the whole way all by himself. We got stuck near Holland Tunnel (outbound) for almost an hour and reached there one hour late. He was lucky though, they still took his interview and it went great. Hopefully he is going to get a second interview with them.

At last the winter is here in NY. A sore throat along with my stuffy, runny nose is telling me that it’s winter time.

Oh I watched American Gangster last week. Nice movie.

‘The way I am’, a sweet song by Ingrid Michaelson from album ‘Girls and Boys’. If anyone needs the mp3, let me know :p

Lyrics:
If you were falling, then I would catch you. You need a light, I’d find a match. Cause I love the way you say good morning. And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater. Your head is aching, I’ll make it better. Cause I love the way you call me baby. And you take me the way I am.
I’d buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair. Sew on patches to all you tear. Cause I love you more than I could ever promise. And you take me the way I am. You take me the way I am.
[Source: ingridmichaelson.com/lyrics.html]